It’s that time of the year when the days get short, it’s dark at 5pm and I feel like… I don’t know. I question whether I’m depressed, or if I’m lonely, or if I’m turning in for the winter and it’s all totally normal and biological?
Some things I’m contemplating.
1. The future of the PSLF student loan program. I honestly don’t know what I’ll do if this goes away after nearly a decade of counting on it, paying the exact way they dictated (which is a terrible strategy for paying it off, yet the one they require if you work in a public service career AND have only Fed Direct loans AND pay 120 payments).
2. Where in the world I’m going to travel next summer. I want to rent my house out again, but my home away from home on another continent has gotten pretty complicated. My current daydreams are telling me that it’s maybe here:
Kgalagadi Transfrontier Park on the border between South Africa and Botswana
Or maybe down even farther south a ways?
Tauranga, New Zealand on the North Island
They both look beautiful! And though my heart is in Africa, I sometimes wonder what other wonders of the world I’m missing out on by being so dedicated to one magical continent.
3. The Jane documentary
Speaking of Africa capturing my heart, it is all because of this woman and her indescribably amazing freedom, insight and bravery. She’s such a hero, I wonder so much what it must be like to be an old lady and still so active, so outspoken and free, insightful and brave. I absolutely love her, idolize her and am so thankful she exists as she is.
4. The new Philip Pullman novel La Belle Sauvage The first Book of Dust.
It’s been years since I had my heart lifted, broken and lifted again in Lyra’s Oxford! La Belle Sauvage was a comforting, slow moving, gentle revisit to a world in which Lyra was newly born and already in peril, her daemon a shape shifting imperiled baby as well.
I don’t think there’s a human on Earth who could read the novels without wondering what their daemon would have settled as when they hit puberty. I went back and forth imagining a cat, another cat, a different cat and then perhaps a mountain lion to really mix things up. So naturally upon finding myself with time to kill, a quick online test tells me that my daemon would ultimately have settled as….
A Stoat!
Your daemon is a stoat! So what does that suggest about you?
Oh, stoaty. What are you like? You’ve heard those words before, haven’t you? You’re always late and in a creased shirt. You hate deadlines and either get everything in at the last minute or miss them completely. You lose things. But you’re also loyal and funny and smart. You do things for people when they really need it – when the chips are down, you’re extremely reliable, often to the surprise of those around you. Lots of people find you annoying, but they are the worst people. All the people that matter want to be your friend
I can so live with that.